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Is the silence …
A tear that never seems to fully make you feel better
Is the emptiness inside
Is the question
Why him?
Why something like this happened to my father?
Why is he ill?
I try to do my best
I try to be there
I cook and I clean and I support but it's never enough
In the morning when I wake up he is there
But he is still sick…
He stills suffer…
There is nothing I can do the help this never ends
The chains we all carry away
People don't understand
They don't give a fuck
They don't really care or know
They take advantage of this
Of him being ill
To be cold and careless…
But not anymore
I can't keep on crying for you
I can only keep on crying for him
Hoping that the kindness
Most smart and caring man I have ever met
Someday will see the light…
Maybe one day can smile and be happy
Nothing makes me sadder that watch him so hopeless
So depress and so trap
Trap on this dam illness and despair
I have no one that understands this
Or caress..
No one to hold tight when I need a hug or a friend
All I have is my past
My tears and my dog
I need to be strong
For him
For us
I won't let anyone else hurt me
I will be free…
Free to help him
To make him feel free…
I wrote this for my father, this is probably the most personal and deep poem I have ever written and it was made in a very hard day when I really was down because of his ilness Im not sure why I publish this but I truly believe an artist needs to nude her soul out
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Mission-46 Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013
Your poem is beautiful, I wish you weren't in so much pain to write it. My thoughts and prayer for you and your father. Tc and God bless
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lnp Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :) it was hard but helped
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Wilcox660 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2010  Professional General Artist
very evocative, very beautiful.
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lnp Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you very much..
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Tuishimi Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010
Writing prose/poetry is a great way to process your emotions. You/he will be in my prayers!
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :) you are very right
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topherwriter Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2010   Writer
my morther has ms i dont know if i ever told you i know the feeling iv seen her on her bad days and think why cant she be healthy we dont always agree the reasons are simple she knows shes not long for this world and wishes to keep me safe and secure as long as she can i comes out as a prison in my home but when i see her on her bad days when the morphione has worn away and i have to help her change the patch to let her live somewht normally for a few more days i see her side and keeop my moutrh shut and clean her arm and replace with a new life patch so she may live in less pain for a few more days shes gotten worse lately her body is dieing from the inside out she pushes me so she can see me succede b4 she leaves her geart and her mind waver her body gives and her muscles dwindle i know yor pain and im sorry for anyoned the ones who live with the disease and the family who must watch helpless by there side if theres anything i can do just name it we who take carwe of those who hurt must stick together or else we lose ourselves ion there pain hoping to take some of it away
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I know how you feel and I just want you to know you are not alone either... Im sorry and I do understand :(
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topherwriter Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010   Writer
i know im not just nice tio know somein sorta person
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
really?
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topherwriter Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010   Writer
ya you always hear of others living with ms or living in a home withy ms but you never meet them its just nice to know somone who does who actually knows not just assumes or thinks they know
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I agree its better than living with the fact that you are alone
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topherwriter Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2010   Writer
ya and the same gloes for you ever need to tlk you know how to reach me ya im 19 but iv been lioving with my mother as man of the huse since i was 14 and i was ten when she got sick b4 my dad became a truckdriver to support us o i know the deal of long time
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
that is sad :/
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RavenX4237 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2010
This, is so beautiful i was in tears, reading this =(
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you
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xxBlackxDragonxx Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2010
I agree about being personal in poetry it makes it real and this is a lovely and heartbreaking poem, because of being so genuine
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much
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xxBlackxDragonxx Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2010
Always welcome
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LilCoroner Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
That my friend was beautiful =)
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you very much :D
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LilCoroner Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
almost made mecry and thats a hard thing to do! :D
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lnp Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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myboitoyismusic Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2010
I think its great that you got to feel the real emotions that come with a serious illness when some one you love is at risk.

When my dad had his heart attack, I was so angry with him that I couldn't have cared if he died or not.
A couple of months after he got better we talked things out. Now I am happy that he survived. But, I never felt the reality that I might have lost him.
Some might say that I'm lucky, but .. its sad.

Be happy that you get to have this as your own personal reminder.
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank youl.. I know what you mean I was angry at him for long for being ill but know I think I get it more and can actually see beyond that so thanks..
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purplepixie88 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
This is really beautiful and really sad. I'm sorry you have to go through this.
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :hug:
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purplepixie88 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome. :hug:
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
=)
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TheLunaLily Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I am so sorry.
I will not say that I understand, because everyone's situation is different and so I cannot possibly, but I will tell you that I empathize with you more than you know. My father passed away last November from Alzheimers. For five years my mom, my brother and I have been taking care of him by ourselves. I slowly lost the support of my friends, they moved on without me and I had no one to talk to and if you haven't guessed already, your poem was much more than eerily similar than the life I have been living. I know you must feel very alone some times, and I know that you must think that no one can understand how it feels, that no one cares to know how it feels, that no one gives a fuck anymore. And I know that you don't know me, but I wanted you to know that you can reach out to me if you ever need to and I will always write back. <3 Shanna
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
First and more important Im very sorry for your lost,I can say Im happy to find somebody who in a way understands cares or even goes trought the same because I know the pain and suffering you feel day by day, but I thank you from the botton of my heart not only for sharing your story with me, but also for taking the time and interest in writing me back and reading it, I really believe that maybe when we lose all support and the person we loved and watch him go trought pain we tend to close ourselves and become lonely even if we feel like that and with reason, so I also tell you that any time you want to talk or say anything I will always be here willing to write you back... thank you again
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TheLunaLily Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. I am trying to accept that he is gone, sort of unsuccessfully so far, the only way I know. I write and write. It's my therapy.
But you really do not need to thank me, because there was no way after reading what you wrote that I could not write to you, and I am glad that you wrote back. I was kind of worried that you might get weirded out and think I was a freak, but either way I figured I would have gotten my message across. I just know what it feels like and wanted you to know that you do not have to go through this alone, because no one should have to go through this alone.
Thank you for letting me know that I can write to you as well.
Think of me as your friend, and hopefully we will talk again later about happier things!

<3
Shanna
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
it gives me joy to know now I can share this kinds of feelings with someone and Im sure you will get the idea of him being gone with time... just remember you are not alone :) :hug:
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TheLunaLily Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I'm glad. And I know I will get used to it all, and I am not in complete denial so it isn't that bad at least...
But it does feel good to know that I'm not alone. :)
<3
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
:) yes it feels good to know somebody out there knows how you feel
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TheLunaLily Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I like talking to you :)
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I also enjoy talking to you =)
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PyroShadow18 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2010
This is beautiful.
Truly.
Thank you for sharing this. :hug:

~Josh~
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
:) thank you for reading
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PyroShadow18 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010
:) you're most welcome :)

~Josh~
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jojosie Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2010
i know what ur going threw my mom has ms
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you... Im sorry that your mom goes trought that..
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jojosie Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010
welcome
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ridits Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2010
i I thought it was very good, it shows what you felt (and i would teary eyed if I had not been listening to happy time jazz)
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
thank you
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ridits Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010
no prob, poems are meant to say something, most of the time what the writer is thinking about or feeling at the time.
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
exactly =)
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ridits Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2010
So just wondering, but have the things that were going on in the poem gotten better?
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lnp Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
well this ilness is for life but he is ok =)
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ridits Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2010
well i say prey for him, and if you give me his name i will have my church prey for him too
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